I opened my Bible and read Psalm 19. These words were meant for my heart.
The law of the Lord is perfect,My soul NEEDS to be revived. I want to feel alive. I want to walk in cadence with my God, knowing that each step I take is directed by him and he is right there beside me. No more trying to be super-mom, -wife, and -friend on my own strength. No more sulking in the hum-drum of daily life. I was created for a purpose. I want to live life to the full and be fully me.
reviving the soul.
The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy,
making wise the simple.
I NEED to be made wise. Disciplining a boundary-testing toddler. Saving money for my family. Finding the balance between seeking community and seeking simplicity. Getting out yet staying rested. How to love my husband, train my children, and do it well. Yes, wisdom for all these small decisions that make up my life...that's what I need.
Will my soul be revived by watching one more episode of America's Next Top Model? Will I find wisdom in reading one more status update?
No, I'll find what I'm really looking for, what I really need in the perfect, trustworthy Word of God.